How are you doing? Had any interesting revelations recently? This past Friday (11/18/94) I had what you could call an "Urban Revelatory Experience"; I passed-out / feinted [sic] at a backyard keg party. It was not, however, due to alcohol. I had consumed only one small glass of beer. There were a number of obvious factors including: lack of food, sleep, emotional, physical & psychological exhaustion, queasy stomach for the previous three days, etc., etc. The onset of the 'spell' was quick and dramatic: identical to the only other time that I almost feinted [sic] and akin to a nitrous oxide buzz & holotropic rhythmic breathwork. Before I realized it I was in an acute dissociative state, my body sensation COMPLETELY separate from my mental experience. Within seconds I felt I was literally somewhere else in MindSpace! Once there I experienced three to five vignettes of numinous insight. I cannot recall what exactly transpired in these but they had my FULL attention-they seemed to be of the utmost importance! The last couple of 'scenes' felt like I was watching projections on a tv: I heard millions of voices as the images swam into focus revealing....

And my thoughts went exactly like this, "ya know, this looks like a scene from a movie where you are seeing someone's fish-eye lens perspective of being flat on your back on the ground with many peoples distorted faces hanging over you." AND THEN IT HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS!!!!! I WAS LAYING ON MY BACK ON THE GROUND!!!! Very disorienting indeed. Once they got me to sit up and sit in a chair I, unfortunately, did the "technicolor yawn" as I threw up all over the place. It was one of the most intense experiences of my life and would have been entirely enjoyable if I hadn't gotten physically ill.

But I have been unable to remember any of what I saw and experienced during those brief seconds when I was 'divorced' from my body. I wonder if hypnosis might work in unlocking these? What do you think.

Sincerely SMiles.

Yes, I have had interesting revelations recently. I will speak about them in the context of your fainting spell. Or start to.

You mis“spell” a word as I apparently did “Conscequence.” Instead of writing faint you write feint. Not just once, but throughout your description of the “Urban Revelatory Experience.” Being honed very sharp to catch such “slips” in my own writing I read your experience relating to feinting, not fainting. I feel the UFO cult is a... feint, one it has taken me years to see.

Are you aware of Freud’s fainting spell outside the cemetery at his mother’s funeral? It strikes me that yours may very well be caused by some similar... dread which is not explicitly present in the obvious context of the keg party.

But it is present in what you then describe which is what my current revelation work is about. You describe an “acute dissociative state” where mind, body, and spirit are separate and cut off from each other. Again, trained to read words as having multiple valences, I see your revelation as this is the state of the world ,we live in a state of being where all these levels are disassociated from each other... intentionally. Intentionally because if they are disassociated it makes ruling us easier. If Heaven is disassociated from body then it is easier for us to be bam-fucking-boozled by “superior aliens,” etc.

But then the truth, the coup-de-grace of your “revelations;” the truth of this is you are lying flat on your back, asleep. Your being is disassociated into these levels. All our being is. Only then can there be disassociated aliens who can enter our sleep against our will as they do to Strieber. This analysis of your faint is precisely what I see in my own sleep states.

States are meant to be governed. Your sleep states, all of them, are meant to be governed, owned by you. They belong in your body. They are the body of consciousness.

My revelation work in regard to this relates to the myth of Psyche, or soul. This is what I have been working on. The relevant portion of the myth is that Psyche, Soul, is a beautiful, eligible woman no one will marry because she is so beautiful all fear the gods will be jealous if they marry her. I think a curse upon the town is involved, as it usually is, and an oracle is consulted to discover what must be offered to the gods in order to end the curse, propitiate the gods. Psyche must be offered! That is the message.

This myth is the foundation of our notion that Psyche or Soul belongs to God, to the Heavens. And I would assert that it is also the absent middle from the UFO cult or myth. We have sacrificed all our soul power to the heavens in order to propitiate them. No one dares to solve the UFO myth precisely because the wrath of jealous gods will fall upon them if they do. I think your “disassociative state” precisely illustrates the truth of this. I too have been in these states. A divided, disassociated state falls. A unified state could govern the planet-not need aliens.

In regards to my article on Strieber I do not feel Strieber is a good model for a leader of the investigations here. Anyone who will so thoroughly deny his body experience and retitle a book he originally called “Body Terror,” “Communion” is in denial about what his own experience is. This is precisely the disassociative state and it is how we are being ruled by it-deny our own experience. Rape becomes “communion!”

So in that regard I would like to stick to my title, “Idiot Stick,” which - incidentally - I mean as much or more about me as I do Strieber. I was on the wrong end of the stick for a long time.

Hey-if you want to see the archetype of the little vision wand the aliens poke into Strieber’s brain take a look at what the angel is doing to Adam in Michelangelo’s depiction of the “Expulsion from the Garden” in the Sistine Ceiling.

I think we all faint at the terrifying knowledge that our Soul has been sacrificed by our culture to God. We feint away from that knowledge to more comfy ones like aliens, UFOs. Aliens and UFOs are our soul power, Psyche. Trickling back down to us from above.

Trickle down revelations!

Best Jeff.